Remy Ma opens up about her painful miscarriage in a video from her hospital bed

The Love and Hip Hop: New York star Remy Ma, 36-year-old, share the news of her miscarriage on the latest episode of the reality show on VH1. The episode aired on Monday night was very emotional for Remy and her rapper husband Papoose. In a clip posted on her Instagram account, Remy Ma broke down why she shared the news with the world.

In the video, she spoke about planning her baby shower and making plans to welcome her first child into the world not knowing what was about to happen.

Watch the video below:

First, thank you to everyone that sent their congrats as well as condolences?? This was a hard time for me & my husband & we thought long and hard before deciding to share this part of our lives with you all. I was totally against it but in a fit of crying @papoosepapoose said " you are not the only one going thru this , we will get thru it" …made me realize how many women like myself experience the same thing and don't have a strong partner by their side to say it will be alright. So I'm here to tell anyone going thru a similar situation that it is not over and God has the last say so Thank you to the staff at the hospital I was in; you all were super nice & respectful and did everything to ensure I was comfortable. And to Dr. Razmzan , who came to perform my surgery at 5am, who tried his best to leave me scarless and succeeded, who eased any fears I had- THANK YOU, & don't retire yet cuz once we find the right in vitro dr you have to deliver my babies ?#BlackLove #RemyMa #MeetTheMackies

A video posted by Remy Ma (@remyma) on Jan 23, 2017 at 6:43pm PST

In addition to opening herself up to the public in sharing the experience of her ectopic pregnancy, the rapper thanked her husband, Papoose, for being there for her as she explained just why she decided to share something so personal on Instagram: